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| 12:28am 13/12/2007 |
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So, I'm having trouble sleeping, because I'm unemployed and it's bugging me. I have this one freelance job, but it is not paying a lot. I know it has only been a month and a half since I started looking and the average when changing careers is six months, but it's still frustrating. So if anyone knows of anyone looking for a video/filmmaker or multimedia animator, pass my info on. I updated my website on here. Feel free to check it out if you haven't seen my work in a while.
Odd coincidence, I think the last post I left on here mentioned 'Flash Gordon' (with Max Von Sydow), and now I sat down to write about my grumpiness, when I noticed that it's on TV. Doesn't mean anything, it's just weird.
Oh, well. I figure it's going to be a while till I have consistent work, so there will probably be a few more sleepless nights. |
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| 12:10am 26/03/2006 |
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mood:  happy music: Satellite - Dave Mathews Band
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So went to the movies last night. Saw 'V for Vendeta' with people who know who they are so I'm not going to bother listing them. I do want to appologize to them for being a bit distracted. =)
I went out with Kate again today. We met up at the 'Bodies Exhibit' down at the South St Seaport. Now that thing was cool (and educational.) After that we went to lunch, and then went back to her place. We took a nap on the couch together and then ordered pizza and picked a movie from Kate's collection. 'What movie?' you ask. Flash Gordon. Yes she owns a copy of flash gordon on tape. That makes me happy. And man what a fun film to watch. It's so cheezy it's a riot.
All in all, a very nice day. |
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| 01:34am 06/03/2006 |
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mood:  blank music: Folsom Prison Blues
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Why the hell am I still awake? |
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| 03:46am 26/02/2006 |
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mood:  blah music: For Good - Original Cast Recording - Wicked
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There are certain signs that I've learned to pay attention to over the years. Interestingly enough it took me up to about three years ago to see the signs, but I am learning to notice them. Things like, I am so dead tired that my brain is not functioning right, my eyes hurt, and my hands are starting to tingle from exhaustion, and I'm still awake. I'm still awake for no appearent reason. I don't get enough sleep during the week and really should be fast asleep right now, but I'm sitting here typing on my computer. This is a sign that something is bothering me. Yes, it took me until I was 27 to realize that. Now here's the next step, figuring out what is bothering me. The obvious answer is that my nephews are sick, and there is the potential that it could be serious. Then there's that fact that my mother is going in for several tests to see if she is sick, and how bad it might be. On top of that I still don't feel at home here, and sometimes I just feel lonely. Not lonely for a friend, lonley for a companion. Someone to hold and kiss and all that jazz. Well, with all that being said I think I'm going to force myself to lay down and close my eyes and I'm sure I'll be asleep before I know it. Night, all. |
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| A date |
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| 07:31pm 22/01/2006 |
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mood: content
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Today I had a date. It was with a young woman who I met on lavalife. It was nice. We started out at this nice place for brunch. Things seemed to be going all right so we went to the Natural History museum and walked around a little. I had a good time. I'm not sure if there's any chemistry yet, but we're going to go out again. Next time I think we're going to go dancing. I look forward to that. |
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| Because everyone else is doing it. |
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| 04:41pm 08/01/2006 |
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mood:  satisfied
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Choose a musician or band and try to answer the questions with ONLY their SONG TITLES
Looked like an interesting waste of time. So I did Simon and Garfunkel.
01. Are you male or female:
A Most Peculiar Man
02. Describe yourself:
Big Bright Green Pleasure Machine
03. How do some people feel about you:
He Ws My Brother
04. How do you feel about yourself:
I am a Rock
05. Describe your ex boyfriend / girlfriend:
The Dangling Conversation
06. Describe current boyfriend / girlfriend/ spouse:
April Come She Will
07. Describe where you want to be:
Somewhere They Can't Find Me
08. Describe how you live:
Patterns
09. Describe how you love:
A Bridge Over Troubled Water
10. What would you ask for if you had just one wish:
Save the Life of m Child
11. Share a few words of Wisdom:
Flowers Never Bend with the Rainfall
12. Now say goodbye:
So Long, Frank Lloyd Wright |
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| 10:19pm 04/01/2006 |
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mood:  pissed off
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I have to work on Saturday. I'm pissed. I have had to postpone my date. Bleh. |
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| 11:32pm 03/01/2006 |
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mood:  excited music: banana phone
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I have a date this Saturday. I'm meeting a young lady for lunch. It's been a while since I've been on a date. I'm really looking forward to it. Yeah for me! |
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| 04:59am 01/01/2006 |
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mood:  drunk
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Here we are entering a new year. This eavening was great. I had a good time with friends and we ushered in the new year with a warm and inviting demeanor. Everything seemed great. No, it was great. We had a lot to drink and a lot to bs about. A lot of fun. We almost got into a fight on the way home. It was a brilliant begining to a new year.
Now I find myself alone in my room preparing for my first sleep in this new year. And strangely. Even with all the great things that have happened this weekend. I find myself feeling like something is missing. Something I thought I had a grasp on recently, now gone. I don't feel whole. I don't feel complete. I feel like I'm falling apart. I feel lonely.
I don't know what it is. It may be my moving to a new town. It may be that it's my third new year since my divorce. It may be that I'm pissed drunk right now. But there was a point in the past year where I was starting to feel complete, but I've lost it. And I don't know how to get it back. Or even what it is that's gone missing. But even great nights like tonight, hell great weekends like this whole weekend, don't seem to recapture it.
I don't know. I just don't know.
Sorry to rant. I jst needed to get it off my chest.
Hapy New Year. |
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| 11:51am 30/12/2005 |
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mood:  creative
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All I want is sharks with freakin laser beams. Is that so much to ask.
I think that I'm going to try and write a short today. I haven't written anything in a while. |
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| 07:08pm 08/12/2005 |
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mood:  curious
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So here's a question for anyone. How do actors in this city find open call auditions? I know they exist and I know that people can find them, because people audition and get parts (and rejected too, but we won't talk about that.) I was just curious. They don't seem to be listed online, unless you're willing to pay lots of money. So is there some publication that lists them? If none of you know, I'm sure you know someone who does. So please satisfy my curiosity. Thanks. |
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| A job |
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| 03:33pm 07/11/2005 |
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mood: content
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I am now not only living in NYC, but I am also employed. I will start tomorrow working for ACS International as a Desktop Administrator, otherwise known as Help Desk. |
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| Happy B-day |
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| 11:40am 13/10/2005 |
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music: Happy Birthday to you.
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Happy Birthday ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) </a></b></a> |
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| 04:22pm 30/09/2005 |
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mood:  disappointed
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Well, I didn't get the job. They felt that my duties to the national guard would interfere with the duties required for the position. |
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| Yay! |
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| 05:23pm 28/09/2005 |
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mood:  hopeful
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I have a phone interview with TrilGraphix, a comany that aids lawyers in preparing visual aids for their cases. Sounds pretty cool. Wish me luck. |
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| Stupid, stupid, stupid... |
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| 04:34pm 21/09/2005 |
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I just got a message on my phone from an IT company with whom I recently applied. I wanted to save the message so that I could get a piece of paper to write down all the info and to take notes when I got in touch with them. Of course, in my over excited state I hit the wrong button. So of course I immediately try the caller ID, nothing since Mon. I lost all of the info to call back. My first call for an interview and I lose everything. I don't even remember who the person calling said that they were or what company they called from. I looked at the list of places I applied for so far and am drawing a complete blank. My only hope is that they call me again. I can't believe I pushed the wrong button.
*Sigh*
I guess the good news is that I look good enough on paper to at least warrant a call. |
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| 40 days and 40 nights... |
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| 02:29pm 27/08/2005 |
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mood:  indescribable
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That's how long until I move down to "The City." I still have trouble believing that it's actually that close. It's increadibly exciting. And at the same time frightening. I really don't know what to expect. The mixed emotions are driving me a little crazy and I have the feeling that it's only going to get worse as it get's closer. I'm trying to get myself as prepared as possible, so that eases my mind some. Of course most days I feel like I have so much to do to feel ready that it'll never happen, but ready or not, I move on Oct 7th. |
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